frustrated

Glass of Temple Bruer Cabernet Merlot in hand, Chicken Madras and garlic naan ordered ( I'd order a Vindaloo but the kids will complain). 2 down...

girl overboard

well...I'm officially going nuts. Im half a day 'overdue'. Im bored bored bored. Can't walk too far- my sciatic nerve and very mobile pelvis dont do much for each other. I cant stand for too long- pelvic compression and arched back, dont want to start anything major, to grumpy to start anything minor... HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP! Im driving myself crazy. Babybean is now fully engaged - Lisa tickled his little shoulders yesterday in her station search-and I noticably dropped 3 weeks ago- pains and fluids to match...we all thought I'd go uncharacteristically early this time...but nooooo. Still here and I still havent had that bath Ive been wanting. Ive been monitoring the kids showers too just in case we run out of hot water for the birth pool. Sigh. Im driving EVERYONE nuts. Think I need to get out more. LOL Even picking up the thesis is looking like a good idea at this stage! Can't even muster up any enthusiasm for curry, red wine and some sex. Girl, you have hit a low. Its all this free time to relax; been there, done that. I need some action.

Studio in progress

As promised in an earlier post...here is the studio without roof or insulation, both which are now on, making it a somewhat waterproof space. We are just waiting on the cafe doors and windows and then it will be at 'lockup'. Just in time for rains and the baby! Looking forward to the internal fitout and some lovely sunny winter moments which is what it was designed for, well alongside the primary function of acting as a 'stand' for a full roof bank of PV solar cells to make our home completely self sufficient in electrical energy. Whoohoo!! At the moment we are paying an arm and a leg for our wind generated electricity which we purchase from Origin. When the cells are connected to the grid we will have the option to sell back to the grid any excess energy which we create and do not use. I thought the pv cells wouldn't cover all our running costs needed for the house; fridge, washing machine, lights etc, but apparently we're getting the super maxi turbo size version.

the dreaded EDD

todays it...the 'DUE DATE' or as someone said to me the other week, my 'estimated date of confinement'. I couldnt believe that that term was still being used! So i gathered all my good manners, didnt laugh or let my jaw hang open, re-interpreted and politely responded that the baby was expected in late April sometime or early May.

Its now been weeks since I posted! LOL
Have been uploading onto my Flickr account, so I figure half my task has been done and the family are getting something from Down Under at least!
I have been getting painful BH contactions and period type pain for over a week now and am desperately hoping for some action sometime soon...really in need of a long hot soak in some water now.The girls are getting impatient and keep asking about labour symptoms and checking if they really have to go to school each day. They can't wait for their baby to be here. B1 and B2 were both 2 weeks 'overdue' so I am desperately hoping that a different father may make all the difference to the timetable!

Its been 10 years since I had my last baby so it really feels like Im having a first baby all over again. My 5ft 2" body was 28 then and I was so confident in its' ability to birth. B2 was born in 40 minutes at home in a birth pool, 10lbs and only a small tear needing a few stitches. B1 was born when I was a mere babe (24 seems soooo young now) at home in 6 hours, posterior and 9.5 lbs. Why am i doubting my bodies ability to do it successfully all again? AGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, my midwife Lisa *waving* came by for a pre natal check yesterday. Chatted for 2hours and listened to babys heartbeat- gotta LOVE a homebirth prenatal in ya pyjamas n socks. My mum keeps asking "what did the midwife say?" ...I say "well, everythings fine not much to tell really". Im always sooo shocked when reviewing the US baby/prenatal blogs or chat rooms just how much over-servicing goes on prenatally- its staggerring. No wonder the US health budget is so huge with pre natal check ups involving bloods, ultrasounds etc as almost routine procedure. Women on these sites know the levels of alphas, betas, deltas, thetas on a weekly updated basis. Staggering. There is a need for quantifying those things that really dont need to be, its an illusion of control.

adjustments

its been a few days since I posted...

Monday our lovely midwife Lisa came for our last 2 weekly visit..baby is doing fine, still head down and heartbeat strong. Im getting pretty excited about birthing this baby now and my mood has been slowly improving. I have been soo crabby lately, i think it has been adjusting from being full on at work, with trying to finish my dissertation to suddenly being on maternity leave with a partner who keeps telling me to rest, put my feet up, read, spoil yourself. Im finding IT VERY DIFFICULT to do very little except focus and enjoy myself after 13 years of mothering, studying , working and single parenting. I feel GUILTY at doing very little at all and not having to worry just yet about submitting my PhD. I think i need to work on some of these guilt issues!

Now that the weather has turned and the fires are on each night I have been fantasising about bringing the birth pool downstairs to the lounge room and floating in oceans of warm deep water... but after such a hot spell and major drought I just cannot justify all those litres...oh but the thought...bring on labour

Its B2s 10th birthday party tomorrow night and i am taking a bunch of 5 to the movies and then out for pizza and then a sleepover at our house. Im hoping to survive the night.